I read your posts and see how much trouble you're having. It hurts to see anyone like that so I truly hope this works for you this time around with the meds. An old t of mine did this with me with food because of my ED. I couldn't complete it. I don't want to put my problems down on paper because it makes them real to me. Maybe I'll try again someday. It looks like you aren't getting enough nutrition in your diet and that could exasperate your depression more. Really try those protein shakes. They are awesome. I get the cvs brand (same as ensure or boost, can't recall). They have vitamins in them and I think they taste great!