I'm just curious why you're decreasing your lamictal? I just started mine a few wks ago and not at a therapeutic dose yet.

When I'm feeling like this, I cry it out till I can't keep my eyes open anymore in hopes that tomorrow will be different. I think of those who love me even when I can't love myself. I think about how horrible it would be for them to see me go. My family also can't take my crap at times and I just keep my distance. They're easy to dismiss my feelings because they don't understand at all. These feelings do pass though, just remember that "this too shall pass." That's what I say in my head when I'm having a hard time. You'll look back on this someday and think how glad you are to be here I promise you. Good luck Hun.