I have just been asked by a new therapist in my first session (assessment session) if I would be willing to try EMDR. I have C-PTSD from prolonged physical and emotional abuse as a child. My father was away a lot and my mother was extremely abusive. I spent my life as a child in fear. As a result I find at in my 50s without a partner or a job as I have difficulty forming relationships and I have a lot of anger.
I tried therapy a long time ago and found that rehashing the traumas left me drained and unable to cope and live a normal life between sessions.
I am worried about starting EMDR as I can't imagine trying to go through all the traumas or even just the major ones (I'd be in therapy for years!).
Also I've dissociated from the emotions as I tend to dissociate from most emotions so wonder how useful EMDR will be.
I have to make a decision and find the therapist really pushy in the first session to start EMDR - I wonder how a therapist can select EMDR so quickly on the first meeting.

Any thoughts from people with C-PTSD would be helpful. Especially those with an abusive mother (as this seems to be the most damaging).