CRACK!!! for me without a doubt. I am the grips of this horrifying addiction to the devil's candy and I'm feeling hopeless because it seems like no matter how hard i try, I can't stop. It doesn't help my boyfriend of 4 years is an addict to and every time I start doing good, he brings it in front of me and I'm too week to say no. I'm starting to feel hopeless to this addiction. I've started going to NA meetings. Can't go today because we spent all of our money on dope and no gas money. I hate this addiction, I hate myself, I hate my life....why does life have to be this way??? Why was I so stupid to try this sh&*? Why do I have to have depression, border line, dermatillomania, OCD, and anxiety??? Why do I have to be an addict?? Why can't I be normal???