Life made us learn co-operation naturally because everything is a trigger. It's not perfect because we still have inner dissension and rivalries like most families have. We also do have renegade parts that just do their own thing regardless of what we others think.

We were cooperating long before we were recognized, we just did it silently and without recognition as triggered. Co-con disguised the fact, and that the voices and opinions expressed in head was perceived as a single thought process, a very multifaceted one as matter of fact.

This isn't integration, but another acceptable form of functionable existence. The best I can say is that our poly fragmented life isn't naturally integrating, we switch too much for one to learn coping skills and stay up.

This is our "normal", it's okay as long as we compliment each other in a systematic way to hide our multiple identities. We just have to keep from letting the "crazies" out. We can't imagine living any other way.

We still deal with missing memories though, we share enough to get by. What others experiences seems like detached dreams system wide, usually just snapshots of moments, rarely any moving pictures minus sound and emotion. These pictures spin out of the darkness slowly growing until I can see it, but to then recede back into the darkness, shrinking going out of focus to be mostly forgotten. Some images do stick. I think this just a showy way of sharing, sometimes it's just a prolonged flash.

I spend my time looking for ways to prove that I've got it wrong, but it's not going well. Being a multiple explains our life- something we knew since the beginning.

When things are actively happening, I can sense all the mains paying attention to the sequence of events ready to step in, much like a team working together, so that we can stitch the present together.

When I'm out, there is no need because we are in relax mode at the home, unless I get a phone call or our partner starts to ask about our day, then the appropriate part needs to present.

I'm sorry for repeating things I've said in the past multiple times. Hopefully I'm helping in describing our system and how we work together. It's not perfect, but so far so good. We still have our moments, but to be able to agree and discuss things is a plus.

To tell you the truth, it still comes across as crazy like this. At least not hearing everyone would be blissful, but that comes with its own unique set of problems.

I wish you all well.