Thank you. I really really hope it will get easier. Right now, every day is still hard. My back hurts, I feel lonely and still angry. He tells everyone we both know that I broke his heart. He complains to me how everyone is so inconsiderate and that nobody cares about him, and when he broke down at my doorstep and yelled in my hallway again last week, I still made sure he was okay. Everyone we both know is worried about him, and he still complains that he doesn't get any attention from anyone. None of these folks ever asks if I am ok, he is the poor guy and I am the mean b**** who broke his heart. Everything he texted or told me when he had the chance made me mad. I cannot even go home from my yoga class because he waited there for me once and now every time I hope he isn't there again.

I don't want to feel so angry and sad and helpless and lost. I want to be myself again. And I don't want to feel like I could never trust a guy again, like I am screwed up for life, like my broken family history has made me a complete wreck which not even therapy can fix or heal. I want this pain to go away