I've been going through a really tough time too. I lost my marriage my home and my mind within one year. I'm unemployed and living with my mother. The only thing that I can say is try to face each moment. I hope with all of my heart that you can save your marriage. i wish you the best with your health as well. Just face each day. One day at a time and allow what is happening in your life. I know it hurts and it sucks. Just keep holding on, don't let go. Best to you.