There is no easy fix, just the hope that I get below radar soon. We are having an interview on the 21st to go over their file audit. I can't even add! I am yes, in that vicious cycle. I have been out of percoset for a few days for my back and have been reluctant to call for more as I don't want them to think I am a druggie. So I am taking advil and Tylenol and stayed mostly in bed today. My friend wanted me to take my daughter 1 1/2 hours north to see kiddo at hospital and when I called mom at hospital kiddo was sleeping. A lot of tests yesterday and significant bleeding. Don't like the way the narcotics make me feel so I am wondering about trying others? Stress makes my muscles tighten and it hurts more. I took a flexeril earlier and it helped. However I have to get up early and drive 4 1/2 hours to where son lives to give him my van and bring his car back so we can fix it for him. Can't take anymore flexeril or it might make me sleepy tomorrow and I am 10 hours on the road. The ptsd stuff does feel like the state is abusing me. I can't shake it. Long story but basically everyone is listening to every word I say and twisting it so it makes me seem bad. My female parent did that. Sorry to ramble, just thinking about a lot. thanks for your support. I see you getting it and it helps. My T gave me home work to think of at least one smiley thing a day. Today would have been the look of about 50 pounds of raw mohair going off to be processed. We dumped it in a sheet and tied it up. That's a lot of mohair. Second would be the smile on my girl's face when she came up to kiss me goodbye and I told her she was so beautiful and she said she gets it from us. So sweet. Gone to an overnight party. Other girl at haunted house with mail friend. Hubby watching a moving and me lying in bed with a computer in my lap. I feel anxious about all of this and thanks for giving me a place to let it out.