Sounds a lot like symptoms of depression. I remember how I used to feel like that, and I had so hoped that they would stay away.

For almost a year now, I've been "clean" of depression. I was so hopeful that I was "out of the woods", and I was convinced things were going to change for me, I was going to make friends, etc.

So, with a positive attitude and new lease on life, I started. First rejection, I said ah OK, just wasn't meant to work out. Second one, same thing. So, thought, OK, take a little break and try again soon. Fourth, fifth, and not long, I started thinking, wait a minute - nothing's working out again. Ah damn, just like before. Slowly but surely, the depression is trying to creep back into my life.

I am still yet to make a success of anything I have attempted. Seems more and more like the same old horse is just going to get saddled-up again.