LOL You don't want to know what my stick of a husband eats all day. It would shock you! He's been on a trip for over six weeks and all I've eaten day in and day out is Cheerios for lunch and a green salad for dinner. Think I've lost any weight? Not harldy!
There's not much I can tell you about diets because I've never been able to control my weight on my own. I know next to nothing about eating disorders. If I have one, it's not something I've dealt with. What I do know is that we tend to carry extra weight if we feel stressed or even worse, live with depression. Axiety does it, too. I've even heard that some people really do gain weight just by looking at something delicious!
Something else I'm no expert at is loving myself. It's something we all need to do, though. What I've read suggests that we need to learn to love ourselves unconditionally first and then tackle our problems.
My strong encouragement would be to find yourself a good therapist you can relate to and go from there. We're all on a rough, bumpy road and only a very rare person can tackle their problems on their own. Get profesional help and we're here to help you along, too.
Take care of YOU.
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.