Aloha Nowhere,
Since your background is in the psychology field, let me get straight to the point. I'm trying to salvage my life by researching treatment for Anhedonia. I've been at it for several years now and am scraping the bottom of the barrel for solutions.
I too have 30-years of treatment for depression as well as every form of therapy without any relief at this point. I will assume you have an Endogneous Depression not related to any circumstance in your life. Right? If so, all current research agrees that the only effective treatment options are medication and ECT.
Since I have tried and failed all the customary medications (& cocktails thereof) including augmentation of T3 and Lithium I'm ready to try an MAOI (Nardil or Parate) I will also be trying nasal Oxytocin in an attempt to experience some kind of emotion.
Although ECT, rTMS and Ketamine did not work for me, I have personally seen Catatonic individuals resume a normal life after receiving a few treatments of ECT.
Although talk therapy does not help my endogenous depression, I am in DBT Intensive Out-Patient counseling at our local hospital which helps me reduce the amount of time my mind spends on Sui plans. It also makes me accountable to get out of the house and go somewhere.
I, like you, have someone in my life who counts on me to be here so I try my best every damn day to find something, anything that might help me feel better. Some days are easier than others but all days are still crappy and I still feel like an un-dead human simply existing on this earth. I just want you to know I DO understand and...I hope you keep trying. As I said, I HAVE seen some miracles happen and I pray someday you & I might find the right key that allows us to participate in life again.
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DX:
MDD- Treatment refractory depression
Total Anhedonia
C-PTSD
Hashimoto's Thyroiditis
RX:FINALLY- found a doc to prescribe an MAOI!! 
Nardil (MAOI)
Lithium
Remeron 15mg
K-pin 0.5 mg/night
Levothyroxine
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