It does sound like a mixed episode, and I always get hospitalized when I'm in them too. Some doctors think if you are mixed you are bp1 but others say it can happen with bp2. So your diagnosis doesn't necessarily matter.

I know you don't want to go. I know it will be hard. But if the alternative is dying, you really have no choice. You are NOT a burden to your husband and he would be absolutely devastated if you died. I can tell you that because I am currently devastated due to my husband's death. I'm sure he thought me and my son would both be better off with ok him but we are not. It is pure hell to have to go through this. So get that thought out of your head. And don't think he will get over it. I'll never be over it. I'll move on and get some joy back in my life but I'll never be over it.

If you really don't think you can keep yourself safe and you tell your pdoc that, you most likely won't have a choice of IP. you're going, either voluntarily or involuntarily. That's what has happened to me a few times. So you might as well go voluntarily. It's a lot easier that way.

Good luck I hope you find some peace soon.