I'm having a lot of "irritability" issues.
Long story short: I was recently diagnosed BPII after being previously diagnosed with GAD and "mild depression" and prescribed Paxil (20 mg). I stayed on Paxil for about a year before seeking out the help of a psychiatrist because I felt like my meds weren't working anymore - I was more depressed than I had ever been, and having suicidal thoughts. So, I've been off Paxil completely for almost a week (I was tapering, got down to 10mg, but the doc said I could just stop taking them since I had been on such a low dose and hadn't been experience the common super widthrawl symptoms) and I started taking Lamictal last Thursday.

Anyways, since the diagnosis (which sometimes I am able to accept and other times not), I have been feeling incredibly irritable. I "hate" everything and I think everyone is "so stupid." It's not like, "Oh, that's annoying. Can you please stop?" It's more like "What the hell is wrong with you! Stop doing that! Why are you so stupid and inconsiderate? I hate you forever leave me alone bye!" Hopefully you get what I'm saying... I am MORE than annoyed and it is exhausting mentally, physically and in my heart (which I guess would be physically, but I feel like there needs to be a distinction there). The littlest things set me off and I get caught in the endless loop of thinking about how dumb they are and how I wish they would leave me the F alone...
For example: my sister, whom I love dearly, called me four times back to back on Saturday because she wanted me to tune into something on TV. We've talked before about how much I hate talking on the phone (another long story) and how I don't like when people call me repeatedly for non-emergencies (but I mean who DOES like that?). So I answer the phone on the fifth call and when I figured out what she was calling me for... Let's just say that if she was near me at that moment (even a short drive away) I think I honestly could have hurt her.

Idk... I just really annoyed and I feel really guilty about it. I feel like a ******. I try to keep it in so I don't offend people or hurt their feelings but it. is. so. hard. I realize that this could (and probably is) be a symptom of the medication - both the Paxil withdrawal and the new Lamictal. I know (or at least I hope) this is bipolar related because, as my therapist described it to me, bipolar II disorder is depression and irritability mixed together (like some sick and deadly combination platter that no one would ever want (lol)).
Has anyone experience severe irritability like this before? Does anyone have any tips for coping with this? I got nothing.
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