I have had panic attacks for 16 years. I remember the first one so vividly, it was awful! I was afraid of everything, including driving, sleeping, night, stores..I became agoraphobic for a period of time. I quit driving, quit eating...I just existed for a time. I would lay on the floor of my bedroom if there was thunderstorms. I went from doctor to doctor trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I did not want to accept that I had panic disorder, I knew that I had something phyisically wrong with me. I finally found a doctor that I understood where I came from. In the beginning I was afraid of the medication he prescribed me, but eventually I found that I could trust him. He counselled with me 2 times a week, unless I felt I needed more. With his excellent work with me, my husbands help and my families support, I learned how to cope and deal with it. It does pop up from time to time still, but I have learned to deal better with it. If I feel that the symptoms is getting worse, then I will seek counseling again.

So I understand and know where you are coming from. Hang in there, find a T and Pdoc, and learn some relaxing techniques. Facing your fears one by one will be helpful also.