This reminded me of the song by Garth Brooks, Thank God for Unanswered Prayers. We never know what is ahead of us. It might be something greater than we at one time thought. I had a guy once that I thought was right for me but things didn't work out. I found out now he is on the Sex Offenders List. Think of the misery I might have gone through had I gotten my wish.
Try to look forward not back.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha