Hello Terry and Welcome to PC
Gentle and peaceful thoughts are being sent your way in hopes of helping to calm you. Know that you are not alone in your situation and that folks here are wiling and able to be supportive to you. I hope you can keep posting, as many of us have found that writing and getting feedback is so very important to healing and finding our own answers.
I wish you well and will keep you in my prayers.
*Gentle Hugs*
sabby