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cashart10 · Oct 19, 2015, 01:15 PM

I made a reheated roast beef sandwich from Arby's for lunch. While it was heating, I tended to my daughter who was eating cottage cheese and grapes. Well, I overcooked my roast beef sandwich. I almost threw it against the wall. I smiled instead and stripped it apart and ate it piece by piece. It was not delicious, it was nutrition, bad nutrition.

My niece who is here is sick with a fever, we may all catch a fever and burn up.

I have my group tonight, with the encouragement of my mom and husband, I am going back. After saying something to my husband he perceived as *****y, he said, "I HOPE you go to your group tonight and get something out of it." He can be so misogynistic.

Possible trigger:

Can you imagine if I told this group that the government is going to raid my home because of my mental illness, christianity, and gun ownership? Can you imagine? Maybe, unlike my husband, some of them will understand. You can see it overseas, chritians being beheaded, burned alive, and beheaded. Why aren't we next? What if I told them that I am going to die? What if I told them I wish to change my identity? But that I would have to leave my family. I don't want to do it. I am struggling. I feel like I should tell my nearly 8 year old that I am going to die because if I die and she found out I knew it she would be hurt. I want to tell her how much I love her and that if I die my husband will care for her. But, she is so young and I don't want to hurt her. I'm sorry if I've already told you all of this. It is heavy on my mind. Maybe my aunt will live and I will die. It is a happy trade off. I would no longer suffer and she would have length to her life.