Hi ShyPoetGirl,
I am trying to remember the times when I was feeling alone in the way you feel right now. There is a time in life when having / not having a partner ( or boyfriend ) makes a huge difference. Later, as women, we learn how to love ourselves.
There are mixed things in your posts. On one hand, you are unhappy with your appearance and your personality, on the other hand you seem not have the support you need to make the changes you would like to make in order to like yourself better.
Maybe I am too old to understand you as you deserve, but this is what I see:
Once I saw a picture of yours and I am telling you the true: there is very good material there . I have faith you will be able to change the things you want to change. There is a lot of potential
About personality: you are very articulate and interesting. Self confidence will evolve and you will be able to display your richness
But I am more concerned about the lack of support you are getting from the outside world .
A young woman needs a lot of support to flourish nowadays. The world has become a difficult place to be in. It is hard for mature people and even harder for younger people who are still evolving. And for girls sometimes it is worse.
I wish I could offer some support but I am far away.
Hope you get the support you need to develop in the way you want.
I am sending you a big hug