Myzen, don't punish yourself for your having a dysfunctionaly family, it happens to the best of us. My hubby has had panic/anxiety disorder for 35 yrs. and his family (out of fear) has never tried to understand, I myself have bi-polar disorder and DID, my family ostrizied me many yrs. ago, as long as YOU can maintain a happy marriage and parenthood with your child you have survived the past family dysfunction, and must continue forward, let the past go.
Angie