A great big thank you to everyone that has responded to me in my grief. It surely does change but it never really gets any better.

Because of the serious issues that my mom and I had is why my depression and anxiety started days after she passed. But I just couldn't stay angry at her. I needed to remember the good times and the good things she did for me. God knows she tried! It wasn't all her fault; she'd been brainwashed quite well in her childhood.

For mothers who have a daughter like I do, that refuses to even be in the same breathing air space with me; does it make you wonder, not so much about yourself, but about THEM? I was a better mother to my kids than mine was to me, way better! But my only daughter won't have anything to do with me or allow her sons to have anything to do with me.

For all of you that have been in the same boat with me this past week, I wish you a great big silver lining to the cloud that we've been under. Give yourselves more of what good your mother gave to you... Dwell on that. Bring up the happy memories and be happy again.