Thank you all. I've made an appointment now for help again. Why can't others see how easily they could help us if they just changed their mindset instead of insisting we change ours? I don't know about you guys but I can't discuss my depression logically while I'm depressed, I just get frustrated trying to when my brain has gone on holiday and left me a total wreck. I've lost count of the times I've tried to explain that a hug and a "it'll all be ok, I'm here for you" would go much further than a lecture on "pulling yourself together" ever could.

I'm a singer and dancer so get plenty of exercise and that really helps. Last time I tried to journal I got totally manic and wrote 45,000 words in a week. It helped tho.

Thanks everyone for the kind words and support xxx