I feel like such a waste. A waste of your time. A waste of your money (yes I know how much you have spent on clinics/books/travel for just me). I'm a failure. I know you want me to think differently about how I feel, say different things to myself but it seems impossible. I try and it's countered with something else, what seems to be the truth. It's difficult. It's tiring. I want to be done. I want to quit. I want to go away. I want to just not hurt anymore. I want to not disappoint anyone anymore. I don't want people to hurt because of me anymore.