((((( Rhap ))))))

I wish I knew how......my ex, who was first love back in high school, who came back to me after years and we fell back in love......he put those fears in me. He'd make "oof" sounds when a hot girl came on tv. He'd leave for work, and I'd turn the tv on and find a porn dvd in the player, or the tv turned to the hispanic channel with the volume all the way down (the hispanic channel always had scantily clad women on). He lusted after the likes of Jessica Simpson and Salma Hayek. It doomed our relationship. I couldn't hang. Was never comfortable with my body around him. He was over sexed though, and it all made me hate sex. He never rejected me, but I was never comfortable because I didn't have the body he wanted. He said he didn't care, that he just liked looking at those women. But I couldn't handle it. I was never able to fix it. I understand how it feels....I wish I knew how you could fix it.