the weight neutral ones are never weight neutral for ME. i think the entire time i smoked i was on haldol. before i smoked i was on others i believe. i smoked off/on mostly for 10 years BUT i smoked straight everyday from 21-24. since i was on haldol.

ugh i cant believe i missed my pdoc appt. that makes me so upset.

im starting to become anti-med since ive seen what it does to me.

lets just be real here. im at a county clinic. they have a set of meds they prescribe to everyone. of course i could be on another med but id still be on their rotation of meds they give to everyone. they wont do new meds im pretty sure. i mean i mentioned clozaril before and my pdoc immediately mentioned another med to get me off the subject of that one. he was like "no. no. how about abilify?". i really dont want to offend anyone but i cant stand having indian doctors that barely speak english and got their degrees in another country. thats who they hire at this clinic. so i struggle with that enough. plus trying to get the meds i would like to try. i know clozaril isnt that good to try. its not weight neutral but i just spit it out.

i struggle with these doctors to listen to me. ive never had a good repor with doctors except ONE hospital pdoc. he doesnt see individuals. id die to see him.

ill try another med maybe. but which one? which ones are TRULY weight neutral? i tried them all to be honest. all atypical and typicals except clozaril.