Dear T, i talked to you briefly tonight, and it made me feel worse. Here I was interrupting your family time, adn it was clear you were just checkig to make sure i wasn't about to kill myself.

I just wanted ot talk to you about how extremely sad i am. i feel hopeless. and worthless. and having you isn[t enough. as you said, being a therapist is a job, not your life. I get that, but when my feelings ARE my life, its so hard to separate. I did call a friedn which helped me feel a little better, but still. I am so so sad, T