mydarlin,
i notice that i:
...starting talking more
...have all of these great ideas
..get impulsive
...worst case senario..relaspe
(i never relaspe while depressed)
mania scares me more, i've hurt myself more while manic.
at least now i know that i am, i've been so high energy all of my life, my family and friends usually don't notice it,
which is scarey because i live alone
and there is no one to dowm me down so to speak.
so i try to stay safe like you.
on the advice of my doc, i've started taking a low dose antipsychotic to bring me dowm faster. it seems to be helping a bit, at least i'm not going into a mixed state, which is torture.
i wish you well,
dorsey