Hey, there's nothing wrong with the way you feel . but you are not yourself and you should give it a chance. I don't know you but it pains me you feel this way? can you take a moment to tell us your life story? and maybe we can start helping you that way? even if it's online. depression to me always has a cause, something in life that triggers it and bleed through the rest of our lives. maybe talking about what you've gone through may start the baby steps to being part of this world again . I have hope for you.