hi everyone,i am looking for a bit of support [like everyone i suppose].
i think i have an addictive personality,i woud take illegal drugs in an instant if i had access to them.

i grew up the child of an alcolic mother,she started drinking because she coudnt cope with me and there was no support given to parents back then.
i live in a care home with 2:1 support,and i have major sleep problems,because im heavily supported i cannot get melatonin ordered in and my doctors wont prescribe me anything because i have a heavily guarded medication protocol.
- every night for the past five nights ive had not one minute of sleep,im a wreck.

for a while now ive been drinking a can of beer every day to try and help with the sleep because beer has hops in which naturaly helps with sleep,plus its legal and the only thing im able to get hold of.
im worried im addicted to beer because i feel i coudnt go a day without taking it otherwise i wont sleep [i dont anyway but thats how my thought processes go].

what do you guys think? am i addicted? how do i help myself?
thankyou very much in advance.