oh no i am NOT going back to that prison that houses me with meth addicts and people peeing on themselves on purpose and makes me sleep on a cot for 3 days next to a row of 30 cots with people in it.

i cant even afford the bills. 1000 dollars here. 200-300 hundred dollars there. medicare doesnt pay like they say they do. they pay a portion and im stuck with thousands of dollars of bills.

i just will try not to put myself in danger unless im ready to die. there are no kush hospitals around here. they literally are private and designed like prisons and owned by them. not owned by hospitals.

my parents dont think i need to be in one anyway. i dont either. of course i think im hospital material but i dont think i really NEED to be in one.

im psychotic and depressed. is that what everyone wants to hear from me?! i admit im not well but IM NOT going back to those hell holes. even my sister who cares for me is a hospital worker and tells me people use the system. i know what hospital workers think of us.

im sorry but i am just so want to avert my mind and body away from those places.

psychcentral is my kush hospital.