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Originally Posted by maskmedaily
I am more isolated now than ever before. I go to work, pick my kids up after work and then isolate myself the rest of the night. On my days off I can not even bring myself to leave the house. I put on a great mask at work- my brave face...all is good in my world face and it is exhausting. I am working on some heavy stuff with my therapist right now, but what I really really feel like I need is to cry...a lot. I have not cried in years. I also dissociate on a regular basis..I have blocked almost all emotion. Everytime I can feel myself getting to a point where I can allow myself to cry I block it off. I just don't feel like I am going to make any progress until I allow myself to have a complete emotional release....I just don't know how to do that! My therapist has cautioned me not to force it and to take it slow so as to not retraumatize myself, but I am so tired of being stuck.
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hi mask,
I agree w your therapist 100% . give it time don't force it . I have some cry sessions with my therapist even my psychiatrist too. whenever I'm reminded of traumatic event in my life, I start to cry and I call my therapist about it .she tells me to write it down in my journal for my next session with my therapist . she understands what im going through . I had many traumatic experiences in my life and my therapist has been helping me through these traumatic experiences in my life since I been seeing my therapist for a year now . hang in there . it will get better .
Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds : Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia