I'm sorry you feel you can't talk to him right now. It's a shame when communication seems blocked...by whatever.
Sometimes men don't know how to show other emotions so it comes out as anger. Perhaps it really is fear. Fear of change...finantial setbacks...security...that ever present...unknown. Still gotta talk sooner or later.
I don't know...but I'm sorry...don't you be sorry though...it's O.K. to vent when you have to. You're frustrated and tired of feeling lousy about it.
It's good to talk about it. Talk...If you want...I'll listen.
regards...dan