Lima, welcome to PC. I am glad you came here and posted. We all get depressed when we feel overwhelmed. We all tend to not deal with what we feel we cannot handle. Take a minute and reflect on the positive change you are making. You are going into a new direction and it will work for you. Don't give up. You will benefit by opening up with your T and being honest with the rest of what you are dealing with. If you keep secrets from your T it tends to block what more help you can receive. I know things are hard, but you are not alone and hang in there. Blessings.