I think my spouse has resigned himself to do whatever he can to make me feel alone and desperate and hopeless. I think he really prefers that I kill myself than to divorce me. He loves walking away from me or will spend the night away from home to punish me. He wont engage in any relationship with me. He wont talk, wont plan, wont resolve issues, forget sex entirely... He outright states that he doesnt care and has nothing to say to me.But he doesnt divorce me and he knows that Im never going to divorce him. I barely get out of bed. Divorce takes effort and even if I had the energy Im sure that I wouldnt leave anyway. Hes made me nothing but miserable for decades but I dont know how to explain it. I have just stayed. For years trying to make him happy, then trying to beg him to change, then eventually just giving up more and more until I have, and am, basically nothing. He has known for decades about my depression and how it has become significantly worse in recent years. But he is tremendously passive aggressive and on one hand tells me that he doesnt want to help me and wont help me and then on the other makes comments about how we will get through this difficult time... I think he knows that Ive barely held on for a long time now and he wants to push me over the edge.