I could give you all the reasons to leave, explain all the abuse, document in technical detail the progression of my codependence, the sickening dance this marriage has been. I could tell you the known costs to myself and my children and what research suggests the future costs will be... But I wont leave or tell him to leave. Maybe Ive just bought the lies for too long. I dont know. I see no way out: of depression or my marriage. I just wait for death. Its truely pathetic and disgusting.