I think that a therapist shouldn't be a friend... I guess in the sense that in order for her to do her job she must remain objective. once bias kicks in she won't be a help.

maybe Tauren is right about reality, it's different for each of us and very controlled by what we feel. we all have our world in our brains and we just share this physical one and try to just deal with each other's realities. it's true, it's gonna end one day we are human and not meant to be here forever. but we should hold on and keep going on the chance that maybe one day for one minute it will be ok... even if u feel numb or indifferent just let it hang in that action of 'keep on going' even for its own sake, without thinking about "why". I don't know. rambles .

but, it's ok to feel what u are feeling, no one will truly understand how depression feels like to us, in our brain, every minute, word, thought. maybe she asked in order to navigate you to a direction that can lead to an epiphany or clarity or something & thought it would help

more importantly, how come ou don't want to go back?