I went into town yesterday to buy a DVD. There was a support worker there. When I tried to tell him why I went to jail, he said he was going into John Lewis. People can use the shop to get through the mall. He probably could not be bothered listening to me. But as far as other support services go; I think it would just upset me as I was so used to that other lot even though it ended so badly, and therefore I may be inclined to want to compare them. It's like being back at square one and I don't want to go there again. However, it all feels like a paradox. The court will probably carry on with my Community Payback Order after 3 November.