Oh, me too, don't get me wrong. It's very frustrating to know what I NEED to do, but to have a part of me want so badly to do just the opposite.

The new girl is amazing. She really truly is my dream girl, as cliché as that sounds. I know I need to put the child out of my mind, and I almost always can, but sometimes she injects herself back into my thoughts. It's not a matter of thinking with the wrong head so much as it is confusion over what I want to do with my life. She does have things to offer in a relationship, but getting to that point is where the struggle lies.