I have had my hours cut and lost full-time insurance. The part-time insurance does not cover mental health related issues and has no prescription plan. I made an appointment with my substitute T (current T is on medical leave) and ask to write down the appoinment for time off. I have a job that schedules you when they need you and has no predictable days off. He said that he had put a stop to that nonsense and no one is allowed to ask off. I stared at him with my jaw hanging open. Then he said that he was kidding.
We went to his office and I reminded him that school starts at the end of the month. I ask him which days does he need me least. He stated that he just wanted me to be available on Fridays, Saturdays and Sunday. I had wanted him to tell me which week days that he was most willing to spare me not the obvious stuff. Then he said that he could give me more hours if I could close. I reminded him that the bus doesn't run that late. I ended up crying. I felt like he was blaming me for losing hours, my health insurance etc. I know that the most needed time is the evenings. If I had been able to close, I would probably be a supervisor by now. A new hire was told that if she learns photo, then she could help out by having a supervisor's key. This is the second person to get hired and promoted over my head. I have been there for over three years.
I mean I'm scared of driving and don't have the finances to buy a car, pay car insurance, pay car maintenance and whatever else there is like find a place to park. My landlord doesn't want tenants to park cars in the parking lot because that's for the businesses and the police don't want car on the side of the street over night. I HATE MY STUPID JOB.
I fantasized about either ripping my manager's head off or trying to get myself hit by a bus (obviously I will do neither). I haven't fantasized about hurting someone since my college days (early to mid nineties).