Hi, I'm normal. Or at least, I'm not abnormal enough to relate to abnormal people.

It's not that easy.

I frequently doubt whether I'm a good person or not, and live in fear of being reproachable. Change is hard, especially when I don't think I want it.

Internally, I don't feel like I have much control my life. My locus of control is largely external, because an internal locus is too much responsibility. If I appear in control, it's just that:appearances.

I don't always know the right thing to do. I guess.

I always doubt my own judgement, so much that I can appear mindless and sometimes think I am. I expect failure and it kills me, because I fear it so much at the same time.

I don't have much control over my thoughts, emotions, or body. I wish I did. I can just be good at not showing my reactions. Though even that fails at times.

I'm not confident. I want to be the good guy but I doubt every now and then. There's something inside that believes I don't deserve good things, quite the opposite. It makes me a bit of an empath at times because I feel so much guilt and anxiety over other people's suffering.

So....I don't know what normal people you're hanging out with.