I will, but I hope he won't. I have had so many strange experiences with him, I feel so ... alienated? His behaviour just doesn't and didn't fit anything I would have expected from anyone. I had a totally different picture of this person, and now I wonder if I shouldn't have seen it right in the beginning. There were so many strange situations. This was all so hard. I had to fight throughout this relationship and now I have had to fight to get out of it. I wonder what I would have done had I not had the strength to go through with this. It was so incredibly hard already. I think I have to go lay down. Much too trying.