hi everyone,
i am a trans man and i am waiting for my very first apointment to a GIC,ive been on the waiting list since january this year and i am absolutely desperate to get support-they havent even sent me a letter to say where im up to on the list-is that normal?
the gp was awful and knew nothing about trans,he kept saying he was going to refer me to a genetic disorders clinic for blood tests to see if it was a hormonal imbalance;i felt disgusted,ive been male since i was born even as a toddler i was male-ive grown up my whole life with people calling me a boy or tomboy if they realise im not a standard bloke.

in the mean time i am desperate to get trans counciling whether online or offline, preferably online because of my communication issues,i cant afford to go private-does anyone know of online help? im on a facebook group for transmen in the UK but everyone seems further a long than me;all getting chest ops or testosterone which is where i want to be,so i feel very ashamed and upset that im still stuck like this.

i am supported by the intelectual disability team under UK social services;they have a very educated pyschologist but hes never worked with trans issues,i cant be the only intelectualy disabled person to be trans as well.

i feel very alone,every day i am misgendered and hear 'she' or 'her' despite the fact my transgenderism has been made aware to my support staff,my family and social services for the past couple of years.
because i have intelectual disability and because of my limited verbal communication style, my gp didnt believe i was trans he said i likely had body dysmorphia disorder instead because i profoundly hate my boobs and believe i shoud never have had them.

i just want to be who i was born to be,i want my disgusting boobs to disapear and i want to be on testosterone.