Hello StarGazingFish: I'm sorry to read of all of the difficulty you are experiencing. Unfortunately the Transgender Forum here on PC does not get the level of activity that some of the other forums get. Still, there are some very knowledgeable & supportive members who do post here occasionally. Hopefully some of them will see your post & will reply. In the meantime, I would just like to wish you all the best as you continue the struggle to live as your true self...