I'm sorry this happened to you, it's going to get pretty dark for you but that is when you should hold on to someone that has a compassionate ear. There will be days, weeks, where you run this through your head. Some people out there are psychopaths, they have no emotion and just play the part to fool you to get what they want and yes you fell victim. I went through something similar and I ended up getting on medication (celexa & trazodone) to help me function day to day and went to counseling. If you can please do that, if you are fragile like me you'll need help from others. sometimes you can't do it all alone. Reach for help. I made the same mistake twice and am currently depressed b/c its so recent. I've learned that you have to be selective about who you bring into your life no matter how charming or good looking they are, if there's baggage, dont go near. logically that makes sense but emotionally, it will take time to comprehend. go through your motions its ok, but seek help. good luck with everything. i'm rooting for you!