I feel awful about this. It 's not a continuous thing but there are certain things she does that causes me panic. Like when she tries to kiss my face, or jumps, or barks. That's all puppy stuff and I can't blame her but when she does these things it's like my whole body fills with panic. I'm glad that she's actually my parents' dog and that I'll be moving out sometime in the 10 months but I still feel awful because I also really love her. I'm still not entirely sure what memory it is that she triggers, it feels like a childhood one. When it happens it's like an emotional/physical flashback but the actual memory is just out of reach. Like when you can't think of a word but it's on the tip of your tongue. That's what my puppy stirs in me. It's kind of sad because I was really excited when we got her and we originally bonded really fast but now it's very hard on me.