My bf is worried because I'm soon to be off my meds completely. He wants me to stay on the dose I'm currently on a little bit longer. I am ready to say goodbye to these meds, once and for all. Yes, my OCD is worse, and that's hard, but I haven't had a chance to try the vitamins that I've read about, and that might improve things. My bf keeps saying we'll get them, but he keeps putting it off. However, my mother has offered to lend me the money to buy them online, and I might just do that.

While I understand my bf's concerns, I really need some support in doing this. Everyone seems worried about how it affects them, but no one seems to care how I feel about being on the meds. They take away my sex drive, the strength of my orgasms, they reduce my creativity and passion, and cause my heart to be more jumpy than usual. Plus, on higher dosages, I have monthly breakdowns, where I just feel miserable, and hopeless, and wail, feeling like nothing will ever get better. After I significantly reduced my meds (over time), that stopped! Not a little at a time, but just STOPPED. It happened for months, and after the final month, not at all, and it's been over a year and a half!

I just wish people could understand how these meds affect some of us, and why we deserve to try to fight our illnesses without them.