i was in the waiting room to my GP when the mother of a former schoolfriend entered the same waiting room and i knew she'd ask about my life (in a mean and condescending way, she's always been quite mean)
so i hid my face and when she took off her coat in the other room, i exited the building without even getting to talk to my doctor and settling things about my health issues

i am so upset that i just can't face other people asking about my life because of what my life has become (rejected by colleges, barely work, depression and personality disorder, anxiety, physical issues) and i have to pay 40 for nothing + have to make another appointment
i feel such shame to exist, i want to disappear