hi newgal,
i really sympathise with you and i hope you can build enough strength to hold on.

i understand how it feels,i had the label 'addiction' in my records which was wrongly added because i was prescribed codeine and i took it every day for my severe chronic pain-i was fully non verbal and unable to give my opinion-support staff told doctors they thought i was addicted and wham! its added to my records.i had acute sciatica for a year before doctors believed me,did something about it and gave me codeine and gabapentin- its so common to be treated like dirt because you have been through addiction or were accused of it.

i hope something is done about your pain,its a horrible life to be stuck in.