I think the Prozac is a good idea - if it helped you before, you know it has a good likelihood of still helping you/helping you again. One thing I've found with meds is that if I have side effects from them, this usually clues me in to the fact that the meds are working for me. There are some that I have no side effects from initially and these tend to do nothing for me. As the previous poster said, usually the side effects lessen over time, so if you can make it through the initial 4-6 weeks, hopefully they will start to go away. And the fact you are seeing a little bit of change so soon on the meds is a positive sign too. I encourage you to stick with the Prozac for a little longer.

Maybe since you caught on that you need help, the meds will be the push you need to help you through this. It sounds like your husband is willing to support you, take him up on it. If you know the things that would help you (whether it be him just listening to you talk and offering no suggestions to solve your problem, or if you want him to help distract you when you're struggling, or whatever it is), tell him what those things are and let him help you when you need it. Maybe even just make a code word that when you say it he knows that you need him to step up and help so that you don't have to go into a whole discussion of how you're feeling and what's going on.

No one ever wants to go back into such a bad state, but unfortunately we can't always control that. If you're really against therapy, do what you can on your own, but if you can't pull out of it, try to be open to the idea. Your life is different now than it was back then. Maybe there are things you need to work through at this point in your life that you haven't yet. Maybe it's not the abuse from your childhood, but other things that are triggering this round and maybe a counselor could help you deal with these new challenges.

Good luck!