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Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x
I've always had extremely vivid dreams my entire life. I remember as a child I used to have very vivid dreams that I could transform into a panther and I honestly believed it was real. I also have a lot of nightmares. The most common nightmare I have is getting caught in a tsunami. The most recent one was I was in a mall with my husband and kids and we were separated, and I was trying to run from the water and find them.
I also have the issue where I sleep but I don't really rest. My mother-in-law (who is bipolar I,) said her first psychiatrist told her that is part of bipolar - sleeping without rest. I don't fully trust her, though. (She also believes that she had a blood test proving she was bipolar, I'm guessing it might have been a thyroid test.)
Anyway, I'm not sure if the dreams are because I'm incredibly creative or because of the bipolar or both. I'm also a writer. I've had some trauma, such as my mom died when I was 13 and I lost custody of my oldest son to my ex (due to being homeless) when he was three and then didn't see him for over a year. I'm not sure if that adds to it.
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Interesting, because I've also had dreams involving running from tsunamis or water (or in some instances...running INTO them, believing I had the ability to stop the tsunami with my body). Is this possibly related to feelings of grandeur? I don't really get a significant feeling of grandeur in my waking hours. Nothing crazy, that is. In my high phases I feel very overconfident and unstoppable in the sense that nothing could ever get me down again, but I don't end up believing I have powers like I do in my dreams often.
Another common dream theme I have is roller coasters, for some reason. I'll be riding along the track on the roller coaster normally, only to find the track cuts off at some point and we all go flying off. Or, just with the tsunami dream, I'm somehow able to stop the roller coaster with my own force of will before we crash, etc.
Sometimes if I'm lucky, I can wake myself up if I see "signs" that my weird dreams are turning a little too weird...so I can stop the nightmares that way. I definitely do feel mentally exhausted upon waking very, very often, even if the dream was not a nightmare, because of how purely vivid it was.