My childhood was filled with drug abuse, alcohol abuse, cheating, chaos, unpredictability, etc. I managed to escape the cycle and live a good life - I have been married to a man I love for 25 years, I have been successful in my career, we have three good kids, etc. I suffer from depression and anxiety but manage to keep it in check so I can live a good life.

However, the last few years of parenting my own teens made me realize just how unsuitable the environment I grew up in was, and I have found myself distancing myself from my parents (their behavior is still the same). Being with them causes me great anxiety, although I just fake my way through their visits. Thankfully, I do not see them often.

But it seems now that they have noticed my distance and are pushing me to spend more time with them. I'm tired of pretending nothing is wrong but am not sure what to do next. Is is worth it to tell the truth? Would that likely estrange me from them forever? Or do I just put up with visits 2-3 times a year to keep the peace? In our family, we NEVER talk about anything emotional or important, so none of these childhood issues have ever been discussed.

I feel very little for my parents; no real affection and no anger. I just don't like to be around them.

Any input other have would be appreciated.